The exact thirty days. I really didn't knew so many things can happen in thirty days =)

In this thirty days I had the best time of the whole year, I had the sweetest talk, the best movie with you, and of course good times do come to an end still. Yet I suffered from tears, from how people look at me, on sickness. At this moment I knew everything will come to an end.

Thirty days back was still having FIFA =) We were hoping much to watch the finale together, but too bad we're having class the next day :(

I'm practically having insomnia every night. And you always ask what is bothering me, the answer is you =) but I still lied to you and I said I don't know. You even tried to hypnotize me to sleep haha =)

Until you're back from Penang, everything slowly fades. I can't take it anymore and I wants to leave these feelings behind. I lied to myself that I'm very strong, I've made the right decision, but in fact it was bleeding inside.

On the next day, I had high fever. Still insist to go uni. I was alone walking at the corridor, stopped by and looked through the academic advisor list, I saw your name at the first and tears slowly rolled down to my cheek and dripped down to my shirt.

You then apologized to me, I was never angry of you. Not because I was dumb, because I realize that you and I wasn't committed into anything. Then at least we could still be friends =)

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I wouldn't hope that things goes so fast anymore, because I know the slower it goes, the further we'll go :)

Not talking with you a day, really took my breath away.

How long could I take all these?

As long as I know you're fine. I'm satisfied.

Had that emo pillow talk with sis just now. And found out that both our hearts were tired too.

I don't know is my instinct too strong or we both have a lil' chemistry. I can sense that he went to celebrate her birthday. Like I've mentioned, I am tough because I tend to lie to myself. I keep repeating to myself, I don't believe all these because I trust that he wont even want to celebrate for her.

Everything would be better if I am a lil' more stronger.

I might not know what the fk am I typing here because I am super emo max. I guess I needa sleep right now.

Finals in less than a month time :(

Both sis is tempting me with year end Singapore trip, January's Bangkok trip and March's Taipei trip. ALL FULLY SPONSOR BY THEM! HOW CAN THEY TREAT ME SO GOOD?!

but must study suparrrrr hard thouuu :(

SHOPPING BABEHHHHH! :D


god, grant me wisdom please.

I love how tough am I, by lying to myself.

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It has almost been a month. I didn't knew time pass so fast when I'm counting down and look forward to see you in uni (:

I still remember every word you said to me. I guess you do, because you still remember I told you I wont miss you when you're in Penang. In fact, I miss you most that time. I still remember how much both of us look forward to weekdays (although we hate classes ;p) during the weekends so that we could see each other.

I still remember you always text me in class and ask where am I because you couldn't see me elsewhere. And you purposely walked back from mamak alone just to meet me for that couple of minutes before you enters class. And I still remember the way you smile at me everyday at the main door when I'm walking towards.

Do you know how much it hurts the first time I want you to get out of my life? How much it hurts when ck told me everything? I thought I was tough enough to face it myself, until I was in the corridor crying alone after looking at your name.

Leaving you this time is not gonna be as hurtful as the first time. But why do you bother to hold me back whenever I want to give up? :(

afterall, I love how complicated it is. wtf

Can we pretend that airplanes, in the night sky, are like shooting stars?
I could really use a wish right now
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where are you?



we love sweeeeeeeeep panorama! ;D

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selesa breakaway camp was awesome, as usual :D.

"I might not be as pretty as her, as hot as her, but I am definitely more faithful than her"